mania

Climbs the spine
Twists around the neck
Hard to move
Hard to hold still
Cannot sleep
Cannot think
Wanna IDK
Not Good
Not Bad
Mania
Got its hold for now
I run through a place I cannot share

Rocky Mountain High

So...
my gentleman...
 took me to the mountains... 
yesterday... we couldn't go... 
to the top... there was... to much ice... 
on the trail... it was awesome... none the less... 
we were... late... getting back... to town... 
i think... our kids... were a tad... pissed off... 
with us... we were high... on the mountain...
on the sky... on the the rocks... on the the snow... 
in our souls... lost track... of time...
 we needed... this lovely... break from the outer world... 

Paine

he makes me smile...
he doesn't treat me like a golden idol...
he says I look at him retarded...
he tells me I got an evil eye...
he says I am a beatiful woman...
he cooks like charm...
he is real and straight...
he he says my laser eyes burn his forehead...
he makes me feel giggly...
I am so happy...

best friends

my best friend is going away...
he messed up...
again....
i am getting my clan...
back together...
to live...
life is good for me...
right now...
just waiting for summer...
to go get the girls...
from texas...

oh, day...

when u know that somethings is...
wrong..
not right... yet, u stay where u r...
go nowhere to get...
away...
it is ur own fault....
then it builds up...
it explodes...
in ur face...
u suffer the pain...
knowing that u..
only u...
can stop this..
cycle..
the abuse we sustain...
is our own!!!

A yard with no grass...

A yard with no grass...
A small house...
A kitchen...
A bathroom...
A living space...
My girls...
My man...
Our dog...
No fights...
Plenty of love...

These are the things I desire...

Food...
Shelter...
Medical coverage...
Plenty of love...

These are things I need...

Well, Me, Ok...

I like to cry in the shower where no one else can see...
This makes it easier to lie about how okay is me...
I try not to flinch from the fear of being hit...
I try not to fib about loss that I must admit...
I am a suicidal runaway that has strayed from both these ills...
I strive and climb and overcome with shear force of my wills...
I am alone though I am far from so...
I try so hard to finish last or just not go..
Before I meet my end I will tell my story...
Some is sweet but much is considered gory..